she's dying

still remember this cute little creature? i'll refresh u. this is moon. she's now 4+ months old. she suffers from FPV. a virus that has no cure. NO CURE! and she's dying..

i went to surface class today at 8am as usual, and at 8.30 i received a sms from mama. "balik kol brapa?"..it's a lil bit weird. baru pegi, dh tanya balik kol brapa. there's must be something wrong. but i didnt reply her msg. lepas kelas abis, i called her tanya kenapa and so on. then die ckp, moon dh tak larat nk bangun.. n bunga keep on muntah2 depan pagar.. muntah banyak and now dpn pintu. ni mengingat kan kat tiger, dulu pon if die sakit teruk, die akan duduk dpn pintu. tiger was bunga's sibling. now tiger pon dh lama hilang kan. then i rushed home..

balik2 tgk btol2 bunga dpn pintu. duduk ..tak larat sgt. senang je nk tangkap. bunga ni sgt la aktif, tak pnah dpt tgkp dia, tp ni gi dkat pon tak lari, mmg sakit sgt dh la ni. tgkap dia and put him into the carrier. while moon, die baru muntah kuning n berak darah. muntah kuning mcm simptom sakit2 yg serious. since carrier ada 1 je, tanak la campur ngan bunga yg dh mmg nmpak sgt sakit teruk. letak moon dlm bakul. n bwk gi vet. on the way gi vet, langsung tak keluar bakul. baik sgt.. mmg sakit sgt kot.

at first, i tot moon ni sakit demam cirit biasa. i gave her ubat2 yg ada. then kat vet cek, vet tanya la kenapa2.. then ckp la die muntah kuning n berak darah, vet trus wat test for FPV. and it turned out positive.

then die tanya, "awak tau ke FPV tu apa.." i replied " tau nama je.."...

then die ckp lg " FPV ni virus takde cure, and die bole hidup for 2 weeks je. if die bole survive, dtg balik kita vaksin. for now, u just have to give her this immune booster. hope that she can survive la."

i was like.. huh... 2 weeks??! biar bena la doc ni kan.. then balik umah, mama tanya la.. sakit apa, as usual... mula2 control dh dlm kete jgn ngs jgn ngs.. tp tersedu2 jugak la bgtau die.. then gi bli cage lagi n isolate her from others, sbb benda ni berjangkit. n moon got it from bunga.. which they shared plate for 5 minutes! sunshine pon now dh nampak weak. tp bole jalan2 lagi. but for moon, she cant walks nemore. she just lying on her cushion that i put in her cage. and isolated from others. and tecik, keep on meowing, calling for moon. moon besfren dia, teman main.. n tecik panggil2 sampai suara pon serak. so sad..

now bagi ubat immune kat semua kucing2. hope sunshine tak teruk sgt ..hope she can survive!

but for moon, i dunno.. i just can pray to Allah.

dear moon,

u came to this world on 16/10/08 ..comel je semua.. and turned out moon la paling comel..semua pon comel.. tp moon sorg je semi-long hair. moon sorg je yg silky hair. even vet pon selalu puji2 ur fur.. i didnt expect this things will happen. i didnt expect u will suffer from FPV. im sorry moon. i really2 sorry. for now, i just can give u the medications suscribed for u. i know u r suffer. im sorryyyy... kakak tak bole tgk moon mcm ni jugak.. moon now weak sgt.. moon tak mcm dulu lg, moon tak bole dtg kat kaki kakak lagi, moon takleh lompat lagi bila kite main stick mcm biasa..ngan sape tecik nk main if moon takde..sape kakak nk dukung bawak gi dapo if moon takde nnt, kakak needs u moon!! i really2 do..now kakak mampu bagi ubat je.. tp moon jgn la buang.. tau tak sedap, tahu pahit... tp terpaksa la if nak baik.. tp mmg berharap sgt la moon bole survive.. sangat! td kakak terlelap, n mimpi moon.. dlm mimpi tu moon ckp,"kakak, moon takleh jage kakak lagi"... bangun2 terus kakak nangis..moon, plz dont leave me!... please dont.. but if Allah loves u more, what can i do.. kakak redha ok..

kakak dont want to put u to sleep.. but kakak also dont want u to suffer. i hope u'll understand.. for the mean time, i'll take a good care of u.. u know i love u kan.. and always do..

sayang sgt kat moon..

sangat..

please get well soon..

please dont leave me and others..

i still need u..